68
Being sick while in a dress--
The worst for any man.
I can't sink any lower than this
Unless I get a Gaia ban.
I waited long for poems short--
But how long can I wait?
I'd better get a poem soon,
Or my love for Mors will abate.

69
Being poor is not much fun--
But luckily, the best things are free,
Like a good hug and a special someone
Who will be there as company.

70
Take strength and take heart
That you're not alone--
That somebody hears you speak.
If you get scared
That you've fallen too hard,
If you start to find yourself weak--
Remember that others
Have travelled your path
And been where you are now.
I promise you that
You'll pull through
--I promise you-- somehow.

71
Christmas is approaching fast
And I'm worrying our money won't last
Long enough to make it nice--
Everything has such a high price.
I can't do anything-- I watch out baby.
"Can't you find a new job and maybe
We'll make our ends meet."
I want to say that, but don't speak.

72
Sometimes it takes even more patience
Than one would ever think--
Sometimes just years to establish
The proper starting links.
If any should know--
It would be I.
I had an idea
I thought would die.
But when I nearly gave up,
What did I find?
A few people who liked
This idea of mine.
So take heart and continue--
Even through hard times.
Your idea may become
Something in time.

73
My flash drive broke,
I've nothing left.
My files are gone
And I'm bereft.
What shall I do
Without my files?
I'll only half-live
For a little while.

74
My grandmother lies
To get rid of me.
I don't know why she tries
When she should love me.
Is it my 'other half'?
Or is it all my fault?
I wish she'd confront me
Like an adult.

75
I'm tired, okay?
I don't need this crap.
Not the literal or figurative,
Or I just might snap.
So get out of my hair.
Just leave me be.
I change enough diapers
That you can do on- trust me.

76
My father's new wife
Likes to mess with my life--
If she thinks my father and I
Need to talk more, then why
Not tell him instead of blame me?
He can call too-- she's too blind to see.

77
When my brother lived alone
With only my mother to play with him,
He often spoke at length with God
When he had no siblings to soothe him.
And when we came (three in a row),
He was stronger for being 'alone',
For he knew our value better than we,
And we knew he would never be gone,
But always there when we were in need.
So too will Claudia be stronger--
Should you decide to give her 'friends'.
However lonely she is now--
She always has you to the end.

78
Don't let pride be your downfall,
Don't forget that you have worth.
You are capable of greatness-- great or small,
Look at the child you've birthed.
When everything grows too stressful,
And we need a way out of ourselves--
We usually make things harder,
As into nothing we delve.
Those who usually fight hardest
Against seeming the worst
Are those who hate themselves most,
Longest, hardest, and first.
Give the world a chance, Rain,
To help you out a bit--
Don't let pride be your downfall,
Or on a fallen house you'll sit.

79
My silly father's making eyes
At some woman on TV.
And my mother feigns surprise
And offense that he
Would make himself look like an ox
For some lady he saw in a box.

80
They say Time is of the essence,
That it's all relativity.
Time is of quintessence--
It holds us in captivity.
We're slaves to the ring of a bell,
Caught between bars of hours.
Each grain of sand measures a Hell--
The human soul's what Time devours.
The only way to hope to win
Is to patiently go through life,
Ignoring when Time cuts again
With that double-edged knife.

81
I sit and watch
And hope and pray
As another ends his story.
I sit and while
Away my day
And gaze on silver glory.
Nothing outside this little box
Holds any joy for me.
I have no friends--
I have no life--
Outside of the T.V.

82

You are a waste of humanity.
All you do is drink and scream--
You have no life, no job,
And no dreams.
You're just a waste of space.
I'm tired--
You keep me up at night
With your loud music,
Your carousing, and
All the bright lights.
I'd like to gag you,
Tie you,
Stuff you in corner somewhere
And get to my damn food.
Well, don't we make a pretty pair?
Me so hungry I could eat a plate
And you...
Well, you're just a waste.

83
The world is weighing down on me,
And no one but I can see.
I'm turning invisible
And no one can hear me scream.
I'm running out of energy,
Wondering if you can see
These words I'm writing or if I
Might as well just not try.
No one's listening,
No one's giving
Me a helping hand.
Everyone's walking
Past me and
I can't even stand.

84
I love you.
Three simple words so hard to say.
But she knows.
I've been in lover with her... always.
Her eyes, her heart, her voice,
Her smile.
I'd watch it everyday and let myself
While my days away.
Except...
She doesn't love me back.
She doesn't fall in love.
I'm left alone
While she's above...
Everything...